// TRACK 01: SEVERE MENTAL ILLNESS
// Duration: 1:27
i don't know what's real
i just don't wanna die, but don't want to live
fuck this world yeah man i don't wanna feel
fuck this world yeah i don't wanna feel
fuck this world yeah i don't wanna feel
fuck this world yeah i don't wanna feel
fuck this world yeah i don't wanna feel
fuck this world yeah i don't wanna feel
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
lost my mind i don't know, don't know what's real
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// TRACK 02: HIDDEN MATRIX PSYCHOSIS
// Duration: 1:47
take these drugs with me?
will you take these drugs with me?
will you take these drugs with me?
will you take these drugs with me?
i've been stressed out by myself, im acting like a fiend
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
looking for you god
deep in the woods taking drugs like im a gnome
everyone is worried about me, think that im to gone
really hate my life, you can hear it in my songs
haven't slept in days, i'm looking like a bum
oxycontin, isabel marant
taking drugs she wanna party all night long
taking drugs she wanna party all night long
take these drugs with me?
will you take these drugs with me?
will you take these drugs with me?
will you take these drugs with me?
i've been stressed out by myself, im acting like a fiend
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
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// TRACK 03: FADING INNER SOUL
// Duration: 2:17
ok bet x8
what is next? x8
live in chaos x8
we all in mud x8
go up x34
no longer human, feeling like a robot
haven't dropped in a few years and im still not falling off
i think she likes me more when im nodding off
had to let her go though realized she was just a silly thot
they said I was going to fall off in 2021
few years later it feels like the hype has just begun
got these hoes dancing yeah, dancing to oaf1
i think she likes me better when im having fun
pajamas in the club looking like i was just recording
she only talking to me because i was performing
girl i know that dude you came with yeah he is so boring
tall model girl, got me feeling like a short king
hahaha lol
hahahaha oh well
hahahahaha rofl
hahahahahaha where are they now?
hahaha lol
hahahaha oh well
hahahahaha rofl
hahahahahaha where are they now?
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// TRACK 04: NON SEEN DEMONIC LAYER
// Duration: 1:51
i've been thinking about wanting to die
but still telling everyone that i feel fine
fuck the world id rather lose my mind
fuck the world and yeah fuck my life
take some valium and chug a glass of wine
feeling like a junkie about to be way to high
just singing this trying not to cry
fuck the world and yeah fuck my life
fuck the world and yeah fuck my life
fuck the world and yeah fuck my life
fuck the world and yeah fuck my life
fuck the world and yeah fuck my life
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// TRACK 05: SUDDENLY VIOLENT
// Duration: 1:17
??????
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// TRACK 06: VERY TIRED HIDDEN DEPTHS
// Duration: 1:17
hanging out with corpses sleeping in a hurse
in a field of horses someone call the nurse
some eternal curses it's about to get worse
fuck the world, make that pussy hurt
fuck this beat im about to go bezerk
fuck my life wish i was never born
1000 past lives yeah i did this all before
i just met the devil she was pretty had some horns
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// TRACK 07: PARANOID BLOOD RITUAL
// Duration: 2:29
i aint worried about none of you bitches
i aint worried about none of you bitches
i aint worried about none of you bitches
if you want war then yeah let's get it
i aint worried about none of you bitches
i aint worried about none of you bitches
i aint worried about none of you bitches
if you want war then yeah let's get it
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
woah hold up woah what the fuck oh
drugs drugs drugs in my head
fuck this world wish everyone was dead
i just might shoot up heroin instead
fuck today im not leaving my bed
spent my whole life living in a shed
in the woods im about to find some friends
texting demons left my shit on read
prayed to god but forgot what i said
woah oh oh, i can't do this anymore oh
im all by myself, i hear voices can't ignore
cuts all on myself, bunch of acid on the floor
cuts all on her wrists, like she was shooting gore
i just met the devil she was pretty had some horns
talking to myself in circles like im about to start a war
talking to myself i think i told myself before
im not from this planet, yeah man i was never born
don't know where im going, is this living in the moment?
way to throwed, im overthrowing
in way too expensive clothing
ego high im overdosing
my girl thinks im too controlling
my whole life has just been loading
my own swag they tryna clone it
who you are, ya im not joking
hallucinating and promoting
demon portal we exposing
all my music is annoying
goblin mode my psyche showing
im not tryna be provoking
really meant it im not trolling
smoked some meth and did some coding
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// TRACK 08: FULL MOON ENERGY PORTAL
// Duration: 1:57
this shits expensive, it costs a fortune
everything i got on is weird and foreign
i might throw it out before it worn
she wanna fuck me like she doing porn
think i found my brain, think that im a lose it
i take my girl to London you take yours on a cruise ship
my beats so damn hard they wonder how i do it
you talking shit on twitter but they won't do shit
fuck that guy, my boys are down to slide
about to call, 50 demons outside
im way too damn high 2025
im way too damn high 2025
im losing my damn mind 2025
im way too damn high 2025
im losing my damn mind 2025
im losing my damn mind 2025
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// TRACK 09: WORLD AS ILLUSION
// Duration: 1:51
world as illusion, world as illusion
world as illusion, world as illusion
world as illusion, world as illusion
world as illusion, world as illusion
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
geeked up and she loves it
inner self inner compass
yeah i come from darkness
all my beats are the darkest
weird gang go the hardest
she says im her favourite artist
we just getting started
go feral go retarded
drugs they stop my dreaming
plane lands im still sleeping
everyday im tweaking
sometimes i hear screaming
feel way off in the deep end
hole in my heart feel it deepen
feel the relief fleeing
im not a human being
oh my god, oh my god
artsy thought
second thought
i feel dark
i feel lost
in a dark place going through alot
in a dark place going through alot
in a dark place going through alot
in a dark place going through alot
in a dark place going through alot
world as illusion, world as illusion
world as illusion, world as illusion
world as illusion, world as illusion
world as illusion, world as illusion
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
i've been going through it, i've been going through it
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// TRACK 10: THINGS END NOTHING WILL
// Duration: 1:17
100 pills in my bag might take them all today
everyone knows my swag walking around LA
rockstar lifestyle man, might throw it all away
future feels so dark, gotta put on my shades
fuck my life and fuck everyone i know
they don't care about me, no i know they don't
this one is for the ones, who never had a home
this ones for the ones, who think they too far gone
fuck this world man
i don't want to think
melted ice in my lean
only what that i drink
i don't got fans
at least i don't think
i don't care how much your clouted
i don't want to link
all my friends they worried about me
leave their texts on read
haven't posted shit in months
they thinking that im dead
i don't want to be famous
might just fake my death
move back to warsaw
and shoot heroin instead
woah oh oh oh, fuck my life don't care no more
woah oh oh oh, fuck my life don't care no more
woah oh oh oh, fuck my life don't care no more
woah oh oh oh, lifelong forever aching soul
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// TRACK 11: OCCULT AND TOTAL PAIN
// Duration: 2:02
holy shit i think i shot myself
holy shit i just saw my brains melt
ive been taking pills all by myself
ive been taking pills all by myself
crash out, bout to crash out on myself
never told nobody how i felt
i got a lot of weird people around
still making money off of these weird sounds
fuck the world hope everybody drowns
and fuck everyone who lives in my hometown
yeah nobody wants me around
making so much money don't know how to count
hear a voice in my head
but forgot what they said
am i alive, am i dead?
what is the, the difference
feel my soul, born again
feel my soul, born again
worlds pretend
illusion
illusion
illusion
blood all on me
pain on the concrete
stepped down off a ledge
fell down from a tree
i don't wanna go
this not for me
i don't wanna go
about to live eternally
bugs in my brain
they all feel the same
were going insane
were going insane
i feel weird things
i feel no pain
i feel weird things
i feel so lame
it's a uh uh uh
it's a uh uh uh
it's a uh uh uh
it's a uh uh uh
it's a uh uh uh
it's a uh uh uh
it's a cruel cruel world, it's so cold
it's so cold
it's so cold
it's so cold
it's so cold
it's so cold
it's so cold
it's a cruel cruel world, it's so cold
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// TRACK 12: 440 KHZ MAXIMUM EXPOSURE
// Duration: 1:17
oh
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// TRACK 13: PRISON HELL PLANET
// Duration: 2:25
im an alcoholic
feel like my father
drunk and falling
drunk and falling
im a drug addict
fentanyl patches
imma take the xans and im taxing
i don't know what happened
fuck my life im sick of this shit
lost and don't know how to quit
say a bunch of shit i'll regret
boredom induced desperate
boredom induced desperate
boredom induced desperate
boredom induced desperate
boredom desperate consumption
boredom desperate consumption
this a prison hell planet
this a prison hell planet
only real ones understand this
this a real old head anthem
this a real old head anthem
this a real old head anthem
fuck these kids man i can't stand them
all my real 1s this is
for my alcoholics
this ones for my father
drunk and falling
drunk and falling
this for my addicts
everyone who takes Xanax
everyone who's still trapped in
this prison hell planet
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// TRACK 14: PLAYLIST FRIENDLY UNIT SHIFTER
// Duration: 2:17
take 10 percs im falling on them
days go by im falling off
yeah im balling on them
not an athlete but im balling on them
10 milligrams im falling on them
days go by im falling off
yeah im balling on them
not an athlete but im balling on them
take 10 percs it's not a problem
way i work it's not a problem
yeah im falling off
not an athlete but im balling on them
10 milligrams im falling on them
days go by im falling off
yeah im balling on them
not an athlete but im balling on them
way too deep in the mb
all my boys out there got a problem
got no life so they'll take your life
and i swear yeah, im not scared to call them
put some real ones on their feet
do anything for me so i won't have to call them
took to much adhd medication
now i feel im stalling
i can barely even talk
let alone write a song
now im sitting by myself
and im feeling so gone
didn't want to do this
yeah i knew it was wrong
didn't want to end up like this
but it didn't take long
now i do them everyday yeah
and it's not just pills
like what you thought
didn't wanna kill him but i felt so off
didn't wanna kill him but now it's too late
pray but i think god
just told me to fuck off
know i deserve it though
3rd world sleeping with the stray dogs
i don't want to be in this world
but i don't want to seem soft
that's why i don't want to take it slow
girl im scared soon i'll be gone
but i don't care no more
i don't feel no more
except feeling so
so paranoid
lost and i know
i don't have a hope
never had a home
excuses i know
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// TRACK 15: METAPHYSICAL HELL TRIP
// Duration: 1:39
deep in the woods and
all alone yeah
please don't try this
shit at home yeah
what im even saying
i don't know yeah
sorry my minds
kinda gone yeah
i don't know
living in the moment
cocaine
early in the morning
take a lot of drugs
yeah im on one
putting coke in the blunt
that's a strong one
yeah on my knees
need god to save me now
i need god
please just hear me loud
zero zero zero zero
wake up everything so loud
wake up doing drugs i think im going to die
wake up doing drugs i think i lost my mind
wake up doing drugs i think i lost my mind
wake up doing drugs i think i lost my mind
wake up doing drugs i think i lost my mind
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// TRACK 16: NON ZEN DARKNESS MANUEVER
// Duration: 2:39
every day i pray
wake up and not me
lost can't find my way
and now I can't see
take one think it's fake
i guess that we'll see
that we'll see
i can't breathe
every day i pray
one day im not me
think i saw my fate
but it was a dream
pushed my god away
i guess that we'll see
that we'll see
i guess that i'll
go, go, go, go, go, go, go
i guess that i'll
go, go, go, go, go, go, go
i guess that i'll
go
it's so hard
to not lose focus
wish I wasn't so annoying
wish I had a clue where I'm going
lost and i might need help
think i found myself
why's it so hard, for you to notice?
that d'd give my life for you, it's nothing
or do i just wanna feel something?
lost and i might need help
think i found myself
then shе said, you act like you are uselеss
lost like you can't do this
just pretend you don't care no more, i don't care no more
then she said, you act like you are useless
lost like you can't do this
just pretend you don't care no more, i can't care no more
it's so hard
to not lose focus
wish I wasn't so annoying
wish I had a clue where I'm going
lost and i might need help
think i found myself
why's it so hard, for you to notice?
that d'd give my life for you, it's nothing
or do i just wanna feel something?
lost and i might need help
think i found myself
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// TRACK 17: DISSOLVING INTO CHAOS
// Duration: 2:29
im dissolving into chaos
im dissolving into chaos yeah
im dissolving into chaos
im dissolving into chaos yeah
im dissolving into chaos
im dissolving into chaos yeah
im dissolving into chaos
im dissolving into chaos yeah
depressed babe
im going through it
best dressed
even though no ones looking
so stressed
about this girl looking stupid
so tempted to crash out
fuck it imma do it
she thinks i cheated on her
im too high for that babe
she thinks i love her
but i don't even know her name
this sounds too different
yeah we don't sound the same
you be sounding gay
xans taking over baby you know that's not me
shouldn't invited those hoes over baby that's on me
ive been in LA all by myself, i haven't slept all week
taking pills all by myself, i hope i don't od
taking pills all by myself everything is scary
ive been talking to myself oh wait that's not me
in a gang all by myself, i feel like an og
in the hills all by myself, i thought it was a tree
geeked up and she loves it
inner self inner compass
yeah i come from darkness
all my beats are the darkest
weird gang go the hardest
she says im her favourite artist
we just getting started
go feral go retarded
drugs they stop my dreaming
plane lands im still sleeping
everyday im tweaking
sometimes i hear screaming
feel way off in the deep end
hole in my heart feel it deepen
feel the relief fleeing
im not a human being
depressed babe
im going through it
best dressed
even though no ones looking
so stressed
about this girl looking stupid
so tempted to crash out
fuck it imma do it
she thinks i cheated on her
im too high for that babe
she thinks i love her
but i don't even know her name
this sounds too different
yeah we don't sound the same
you be sounding gay
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// TRACK 18: EMPTY STRESSFUL HALF DREAMS
// Duration: 2:43
i feel dark
i feel old
lost myself
lost my soul
i feel dark
i feel old
lost myself
lost my soul
i might break down any day
im not okay
im not okay
yeah, I feel lost
i feel old
lost myself
lost my soul
not afraid
down the drain
am i a ghost?
am i in pain?
because every day
feels the same
can you hear me?
scream your name
never been
by myself
because in my head it
feels someone else is
talking to me
do I need help?
heightened state of paranoia always felt
im a ghost, ghost, ghost in my shell
im a ghost, ghost, ghost in my shell
im on my own, uh, uh, by myself
im on my own, uh, uh, by myself
im a ghost, ghost, ghost in my shell
im a ghost, ghost, ghost in my shell
im on my own, uh, uh, by myself
im on my own, uh, uh, by myself
i feel dark
i feel old
lost myself
lost my soul
i feel dark
i feel old
lost myself
lost my soul
i might break down any day
im not okay
im not okay
yeah, I feel lost
i feel old
lost myself
lost my soul
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// TRACK 19: FRAGILE INTERLUDE
// Duration: 2:47
is that me?
i can't see
head first, trees
i just lost control
it's not bleak
it's not deep
nowadays
i don't really know
what's up bro
i don't know
lost all hope
but keep it to myself
what's up bro
lost my girl
lost all hope
and i might kill myself
but i'll just, but i'll just keep that to myself
but i'll just, but i'll just keep that to myself
feeling nauseous
two pills and im gone
it's so constant
but i did this for too long
got no options
baby do you, do you?
feel so awesome
but my keys and phone are gone
think i lost them
i've been waiting for too long
its so constant
but baby do you, see through
oh, life
is there something?
when the world still on fire
oh, life
turns us all to nothing
common sense turns us all to liars
everybody loves her
everybody loves her
help, think im on fire
and nobody is coming to save my life
help, situations dire
think i will be sleeping in the bush tonight
help, my desire
have all turned into my fears they bite
help, is required
but i'll just pretend like everythings all right
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// TRACK 20: THOUGHT RIDDEN CRASH OUT
// Duration: 1:17
about to crash out
about to crash out
about to crash out
about to crash out
im a loser
im a stoner baby
i don't know
what im doing
im a loner
im a poser baby
will you go
to this rave with me?
im a breakdown
im a burn down
im a burn out
will you watch me?
im a lose it
go stupid
in this club
tonight baby
about to crash out
about to crash out
about to crash out
about to crash out
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// TRACK 21: IN MY ROOM
// Duration: 1:39
there's a place
i can go
that I can be so unknown
everyone's worried about me i know
but then why do i still feel alone?
get so depressed it makes her scared
yeah, i'm sorry if i'm being weird
tinfoil windows, clothes everywhere
feels like the whole world is right here
in my room
in my room
in my room
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// TRACK 22: SHADOW WORLD ILLUSION SELF
// Duration: 1:57
every day, it feels the same
i can't get out
i don't know what im doing
don't know what im doing
everyone they're all the same
and talk about
the same old bullshit
so sick of it
and now even these pills
yeah i can't feel them
when she's talking
i can't even hear anything
what a shame
because i really care
and i don't want you to think
that i don't
because i really care
even more than i ever did about myself
because girl your the only thing that makes my world go round
beause girl you're the only thing that i ever, ever think about
when i wake up i still think somehow
how im gonna get you back
how im gonna get you back, oh oh
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// TRACK 23: STILL RARE
// Duration: 2:44
always felt so alone
always felt like i never had a home
as soon as i got comfortable i had to go
never really worked in a real studio
but the way my shit sounding yeah they'd never know
hyping up people making songs on their phones now
more followers then monthly listeners is the norm now
whole underground bunch of weird clone now
industry plant rich kids should be their pronouns
did a tour in europe, loneliest i've ever been
only time i saw people was at the shows i did
looking out the window just wishing how my friends
could be here to see how were really lit
lost myself in asia looking back feels like past life
driving on a motorbike driving fast i
remember thinking alot of nights would be my last night
pray to god don't let me crash as i hit the gas i
was banned from the US i had to figure it out
6 months in bogota off percs by myself
covid was mexico, fake cops came to my house
tried to kidnap and extort me im lucky to be around
world locked down no flights out the country
took a bus to belize hope the border takes my money
really dancing with the devil i don't know what i was becoming
i tried to sell my soul, but he wouldn't give me nothing
why can't i remember, anything before september
my name or my gender, never ending drug bender
hope this song never render, feel eternally fucked
this isn't going through it this is truly giving up
i could never give enough, gave myself to this shit
now they all going up, off a sound we already did
never tried to give us any credit so i guess
if i killed myself they would say fake gay and mid
still rare
still rare
still rare
still rare oh
still rare
still rare
still rare
still rare oh
still rare
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// TRACK 24: OPEN AIR MENTAL ASYLUM
// Duration: 2:51
took acid at the party and now im alone now
i want to kill everybody in my hometown
we in the moment baby, yeah put your phone down
fake woke bitch asking me about my pronouns
weird dude in the club, yeah with sweatpants on
that's your girl? then why she all up on me dancing
she going to fuck with me, if she gets the chance bruh
never heard of me, but she acting like a fan yeah
fuck life baby yeah feel im eternal
real rockstar they wanna sell my journals
weird gang baby yeah we not normal
with a weird girl we both looking paranormal
all alone yeah making friends with this ashtray
i think she likes me even though i got acne
walk in the room, why they all looking at me?
i didn't think my fit, was that strange
took acid at the party and now im alone now
i want to kill everybody in my hometown
we in the moment baby, yeah put your phone down
fake woke bitch asking me about my pronouns
weird dude in the club, yeah with sweatpants on
that's your girl? then why she all up on me dancing
she going to fuck with me, if she gets the chance bruh
never heard of me, but she acting like a fan yeah
...